Monday, September 22, 2014


The more I browse the humor section of Pinterest, the more I realize that i could not handle Australia with all of its insane spiders. I can barely handle Seattle's spiders and they are maybe the size of a nickel.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

My health is crap

Today really sucks.

I have a 3 and a half year old son. I would really like to have more children but it just can't happen in the short term. And that really sucks.

I was on bed rest with my Honey Bear for 3 months.  3 MONTHS. It was completely worth it, but it also trashed my health. My son doesn't have the mom he deserves because I am still working to be healthy and strong again. I had hoped to have my children reasonably close together but at this point Honey Bear will probably be 6 years old.

I am 4 years younger than my sister and you know what?  We are close and we're not really friends. We try but there is nothing there, we are too far apart to have anything in common. I don't want that for my children,  I wanted to at least give them a chance to be close to their siblings.

I am on the right track, but I developed Adult Onset Asthma after pregnancy--it took them 9 months to figure out my breathing problems because it is rare to develop asthma as an adult. So those first 9 months of Honey Bears life I was useless, the next year went alright but very complicated with learning to control my asthma. Then I manages to develop an S - I strain in my lower back that was so painful that the doctors initially read the X ray as a crack in my spine. Then came months of rest and physical therapy....then came Pneumonia, that landed me in the hospital for a few days. Thus, setting my breathing back even more, as well as my resolve to improve my health.

Life is sucking today, as I realize I might only have 1 more pregnancy left in me....Anyone know how to have triplets?